It is interesting. Very interesting indeed. An observation that is of people’s behaviour. Although the separation between right from wrong is distance with a wide grey area this is still in my humblest of opinion is hypocrisy.

What I mean is this. My observation started with a little known incident called the Great Tohoku Earthquake or also known as that big huge ass earthquake/tsunami that devastated Japan’s east coast. After that incident many people around the world and especially in my home country rallied to their aid. Collecting food, monetary aid, blankets and the like. I’m not saying its a bad thing. It’s a very good thing to do to help others and I highly encourage it. But then why the fuss? Read on.

Then one day about a month or so we could see many people still hyped up the aid thing by forming organizations and organising events to collect funds and to create awareness. Some of these people were my peers. Just like me they love Japan. Just like me it was because of anime, their music and culture that first spark our interest in Japan. But that is where it stops though. Although it was sad to see what has happen the general public should know that Japan with all of its economic might could and would be able to survive and rebuild even without much foreign aid.

Heck, we actually need more cold hard foreign cash than they do. In fact, Japan received so much in donations they didn’t even really had a system to set up to distribute it. Aid was aplenty but could not get through until the American military had to step in to help deliver it. This highly misplaced motivation to help didn’t really bother me actually until THREE freaking months passed and some groups were STILL at it collecting donations.

First month or so? Fine. After three whole months? You have got to be kidding me. The entire nation of Japan did not get swept into the sea guys. Yes, it is sad that many people still got killed. I felt really sad too. Almost 16,000 people died with thousands more injured or missing.

But lets put things this way, thousands of children are dying of starvation in Somalia due to extreme drought. Where’s the aid campaign? Hundreds of people are dying in the middle east due to political oppression and wars. Where’s the awareness campaign? How about the many natural disaster events that wreak havoc and death in the past year alone before this? I don’t think I see anything much done. Remember Hurricane Katrina? Nothing much too.

Some might argue that “Hey, I like that country so I’ll do what I can. I don’t really care about the others. So I’m gonna let others to handle it.” Yes, that is an acceptable argument but it will never right or wrong. I’m just saying that people need to set their minds to moderation in their actions. If you think that it is REALLY necessary then yes by all means go ahead. If not then just do what you can by your limited contributions. Some events need more of your help and attention than others. Lets try not to be so shallow minded okay? Don’t stop at helping only one person and not the other.

So since now that I have your attention how about we feed some malnourished almost dying child in some part of the world for once or something. Let’s earn some karma points people!

http://www.icrc.org/eng/donations/index.jsp

I was told of nonsense by my boss and yes I relayed what was said to me to those I spoke to. Although many times I have said that I do NOT care what he said and that I’m only trying to take the opportunity to use his resources to train the people I bring in, I keep getting misunderstood as “you felt for his tricks and gimmick”. Regardless, as much hurt and pain I’m reeling from this treatment I’m getting its nothing compared to the words of your love ones condemning you to shame.

One might ask me questions on my bad decisions and give suggestions to stay on and then give degrading statements that I’m useless and couldn’t hold a job but let me ask this:

“Are you happy? With  your current (first) job?” Yes?

“Do you like the environment you’re in?” Yes?

“Do you have great colleagues and an understanding and cooperative boss?” Yes?

If its yes the you have not been in my shoes. I’m looking for what you have right now. It might not be 100% the same that is true but I’m looking for the right environment and that’s why I change. The current company I am in is dying to a point where it cannot sustain itself due to mismanagement and very bad planning. I did not see this during most of the first month I was there but only during the second month and I then quit with the rest of the company at the end of my second month there.

Indeed, I am not perfect and I will make mistakes and continue to make mistakes in my life but it doesn’t mean one doesn’t learn from experience and move on. That is the part and parcel of becoming human. Show me one human being that has never made a mistake before and I’ll show you a portrait of Da Vinci painted by Mona Lisa herself.

Went to Seremban this year to visit my girlfriend’s family for the Chinese New Year. Worst decision ever. They hated me. Well hate is a harsh word so I guess “disagree with her choice” is the more appropriate one to use. Not to say I didn’t expect what will happen though. Don’t really blame them too. If I dated myself I’ll disagree too.

Anyways, I’m just gonna take things easy for the rest of the month and take my time finding another job opportunity. It hurts but I guess I should not be bothered so much about this. People will always say stuff about you after they met you only once(or twice). First impression as they say is important but as I always say…in life…”never judge a book by its cover” and “actions are better than words”.

Happy Lunar New Year to you and  your family and may prosperity shine upon you this new year.

2010 was a really REALLY weird year for me. It was a years of change, joy and also sadness. All mixed up in a giant blender top off with some disappointment.

1. FINAL YEAR PROJECT

Pretty hard to miss this one here. Its my Final year pursuing my degree in electronics engineering in Multimedia University. It was tiring, kinda fun, painfully sad and satisfying when this was all over. It was a solo project. Not a very smart thing to do mind you. It didn’t really work out in the end and although I wanted to do this in a team I was unfortunately to receive the short end of the straw…again. As usual, I could sum up my entire university life in just two words really. Lonely and disappointment. Yes I did meet some really great people and had some wonderfully crazy times but the times I had IN class with people just didn’t really work out.

The yellow block of cheese robot didn’t move in the end after building it up due to very bad board fabrication. Would have done a better job if I had a partner to do it with. Anyways, whats done is done. No use crying over spilled milk.

2. USA SUSI TRIP

The land of liberty and freedom. I had one heck of a shocker when I found out that I was selected as one of the 7 Malaysians to participate in the year’s summer Study of the US Institute program. I had loads of fun there. Meeting the people. Seeing the sights and listening to the sounds of a country I have admire from behind a TV screen all my life. The Americans and their lifestyle may not be perfect or great but no ever country ever is. They might have their problems but their ideals ingrained in every citizen is really something to admire about.

Its hard to describe something as an experience into words. Only that it was EPIC. Although, there was a certain incident that made the rest of the SUSI participants hate me. I blame it on the huge age differences and on how I view things differently. I will return to the US of A that I guarantee but without the extra baggage.

3. END OF STUDIES

About two months after the SUSI program ended, I finally completed my extra semester for an additional subject and also partly due to the US trip. I was actually pretty weird going to class without seeing most of the people I knew throughout the years. Almost all of them had graduated by the time I came back since the convocation was held during my entire flight duration back to Malaysia. Finishing up my degree should feel satisfying but again…I’m not really feeling it that much. Maybe because I have a freaking study loan the cost of a brand sparkling new Toyota Vios with automatic transmission to boot literally up my ass. That was really a punch to the balls especially since they decided to start the payment counter in May and NOT in October when Ive actually finished my course.

4.WORK WORK….CARRY ON NOW…

A couple of weeks after my final FINAL paper I started working with an engineering firm nearby as a project engineer. They were supposed to be dealing in building control systems as part of a green building kinda program. I though ‘Hey, this should be interesting as by joining the project team I will be learning so much and benefiting from it too. HAHAHAHAHA.’ I was wrong…I became a site supervisor instead. After over a month of not delivering what they hired me for I quit and a week later with recommendation from my sister, I’m now at my new job doing sales and marketing in an events company that specializes in trade shows. I do not know whether I feel lucky or not because I really hate conducting sales. But I’m now trying to stay positive….really…really hard. Hehehe. ;;>__> On the plus side, I’m now at least involved in the events field. Although, it is not what I expected it to be. This company may be small, old school and very obsolete but at least I’m being given opportunities to learn and grow.

It has been a tiring but not entirely not great year for me. I just hope and wish that this year in 2011, would be a better life changing year ahead. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY AND GOD BLESS!!!!!!

I just don’t get seeing 2 (apparently gay) guys doing it as fun.

Screw this shit. /runs

To me, my life as a university students was a dump. I didn’t socialized with my classmates much, was a mess emotionally, met assholes who I thought could be considered as friends who ultimately backstab me and honestly, it was quite a bitch really. Although as a consolation, I did meet a few good people and also my certain someone at the end of the day.

Studying in Multimedia University or any local university for short is just the same as one is studying back in secondary school. Pathetically dull, boring and having the ability to kill off any sort of creative thinking that one might have. I’m not saying that all my lecturers suck. Most of them were pretty good and helpful mind you but the method that most of they themselves employed is just an extension on how ineffective the Malaysian education environment is. I started out studying engineering to do something that is beneficial to society, but now I’m seriously regretting it as the job scopes here in the country is so limited its sad. Sad to the point that no matter where I look its all the same.

After being in a classroom and seeing how the classes were handled while on the US summer program, I can clearly see how sad the state of our education system is. I have never felt more alive being in the classroom in the US than I’ve ever been the whole of my student life. I would love to try applying for their masters program but seeing how I can’t afford that I’m just hoping that I might get one of their assistantship programs in the future. Although, the chances for that is as slim as bulimic warthog.

So as I sit here at my work site typing this out of sheer boredom, I’m also trying to look for another more meaningful and productive occupation. By the way, I got trolled into joining this sad state of a company and I can’t believe I got suckered into this. I hope the next job would be better.

Yeeeaaah….righto… There’s so many things wrong but hilarious I could say about this right now. The job I think about when I saw this was if you were a freaking MANWHORE!!! Ehem…so what Chronic Muscle Hardening job are you having?

The beginning of the year started off really bad with heartaches after heartaches. Living everyday was like a zombie living with the only purpose of eating brains. Sad. Pathetic really.

Then came the build up to Daicon. The event that I put my heart and soul in. It was all fun and dandy until politics kicked in and people who I once though as my friends became my foes. It pains me to see such an occurance but alas that is life.

My internship was a first taste of a standard salary man lifestyle. Very stable if I do say so myself but very boring as well.

Cosplayers. Geez…this was the year I finally came out of my shell and met so many great people in the cosplay community. Seeing them giving their best from making their costumes to trying their bestest in being in character really encourages me to organise more cosplay related events for them.

AFA09 was great other from me going all crazy at the end due to amassing tiredness. Apologies to my cousin Janice and Crystal if I scared you there. I feel if I was more energized it could be even more fun. My first full attempt at cosplaying as well. Not very well executed. Need more practice.

Cosplay photoshoot. I’ve been learning alot from every photoshoot I get invited too. Really happy got to meet many photographers as well like Aoshi and Linkinstreet and cosplayers alike too. Now I really need to upgrade my equipment cause I’m at my limits at what I can and cannot do with what I have. Any sponsors?

Last but not least….I’ve met someone. That certain someone was the one who lifted me up from all my deepest depression period ever. All these unexpectedly too for the both of us and I’ve never been happier in my entire miserable life…until today. Its about 2 months till the time of this writing since we’ve been together. No regrets. Thank you dear.

But what do I see in 2010? Organizing one of the biggest event I’ve ever conducted in my life, finally finishing my studies and starting my own company might be somewhere in there I guess. But anyway, Happy New Year to all my readers and all my family and friends and I wish you all a good health and great prosperity!!! Time to think of a new resolution this year. Maybe loosing weight may not be such a bad idea i think…

P/s: I wish a slow and painful death to all my enemies. XD

The whole concept part is unique and comprising 2 stories of eating and display space it really is nice to see such design and creative works on display. It honestly had a few stuff that I find as very interesting. The pictures show for themselves.

However, what really disappointed me was the food and drinks. To sum it up in a word. SHIT. Yeaps, you heard me right. It taste like small portions of defecation arranged nicely on my plate. Not only was the portion disappointingly sad it was bloody expensive as well. I ordered the ‘Sauteed Spaghetti’ and it got mowed down in 30secs flat. Yes, I even timed myself. The girls I went with ordered Korean Noodles which was basically instant Korean noodles with 2 sausages and some vegetable cooked in it and also a Nasi Lemak Ayam Rendang. The instant Korean noodles used wasn’t even a good brand. It was a little bit spicy but tasteless and would have insulted Koreans themselves. If this was North Korea I think the cook would be placed in a concentration ‘re-education camp* for this insult. The Nasi Lemak barely survive the food test and was just ‘edible’.

The drinks was too sweet and my pot of peppermint tea was tasteless. It was so tasteless I had to ask for sugar which did not come together with the tea separately. Here’s the kicker, the waitress looked stumped when i requested for sugar like the concept of putting sugar in plain tea was foreign to her. Heck, she came back with a couple of small sugar packets  you find at starbucks or in hotels for me and did not even give me a teaspoon to stir it with. I mean come on! ITS PEPPERMINT TEA!!! NOT GREEN TEA OR JASMINE TEA OR YOUR STANDARD CHINESE FREAKING TEA DAMMIT!!! *Huff huff* *Ehem* This bring me to the point of this short review where I say the service pretty much sucked. It didn’t suck too much actually but its still wasn’t up to par to what I’m paying through my nose for.

This was my 2nd time eating at Fullhouse, the first being my sister’s birthday and I though my tastebuds had to be used to the taste of their sweet black pepper sauce or their sweet cream sauce on their food. Bleh. Some food goes well with others and vise-versa but this time I could clearly confirm that this place is to be avoided if you wanna have a meal. Drinks should be find if you like to acquire diabetus or have a taste for tasteless angmoh tea. Come here for the decor, take a look, take some pictures and get the fuck out. Don’t waste your money, trust me. Its not worth it.

Coming back to NiuZeXui, it really is a unique place with potential trying to establish itself within the lifestyle concept. Very interesting indeed but sadly in my opinion suffered from VERY bad location planning. Good concept, bad implementation. When I went there on a Sunday it looked completely deserted like a ghost town with all the lights off and only a few shops were open and fewer visitors to boot. It was not how it looked like the last time I was there. Scary indeed.

So, will I be going to Full house again? By myself? Not a bloody chance in hell. Unless its to go and take pictures or if they improve the quality of their food then maybe just MAYBE I’ll reconsider.

P/s: Looks like Fullhouse will be opening a branch in Sunway Pyramid. I think its gonna suck as much as the original one.

Apparently, this place also breeds semi transparent frogs for sale. Such cruelty I say.

Most of the problems can be found in other blogs or forums so I won’t talk about it. That said it can be greatly be reduced or solved if it was brought up much earlier. I wanted to do my job but due to emotional and immature thinking of the hicomms I was deny that role. Kept in the dark and refused to be given proper information and also with a strange campaign planned to undermine which was pretty obvious proved that my services were not required. Not that I have a problem with not doing work but my professionalism demands that I must do my best.

After trying to confront this issues, strange reasons which were obviously illogical were given. No explanations were sought out nor was this was ever voiced out or talked over. Never have I worked in a group before that such a thing had happened before. Brats. Spoiled brats to be exact. This reminds me of high school drama that is famous of being brought into a university setting. Wonderful.

With all this being taken personally no proper work was done to solve issues that would arise and during that time I was free and very willing to handle such task which was my role in the first place. Being professional and responsible to immature kids is really irritating. Do you job properly and they will say that you are misusing your power. Ask for information they will say you are ordering them around. This would be true is your role was not the FREAKING ASSISTANT DIRECTOR. I wonder if the same train of thought would occur if its the director asking the same things and not me. Curious.

Assumptions and heresay mixed into work is a dangerous mix. From no drama to drama in such a short time even staying neutral was difficult as your every action was deemed as dangerous and scrutinized at every chance. But when they involve your personal life into the equation it was just too much. No matter how much you talk to blockhead who does not want to listen because it would mean that they were wrong is not what they wanted in the first place. Most of the problems were already foreseen months ago and if only they did not cut me out from the loop I would had continue doing my job at hand. Do so much for others and they stab you in the back at the end of the day. Yeap, I’m too nice for my own good. Period.

“Respect is not given but earned” is a two way quote which means the same for the speaker as well but when one’s action contradict such words it is known as hypocricy. When I speak of respect I always point out by saying that you must talk to the other person like a human being not ONCE did I ever mention that I must be respected due to my position. Listening to one thing and not the whole sentence is again just plain ignorance.

That said, one must look into the mirror and reflect upon oneself before judging others. We are not perfect being as some might claim to be. Understanding one another and talking things out is the mature and adult way to go. As long certain groups of people do not recognize and face this and grow up I am certain that they will never survive in the real world. The irresponsibility of a few people was what messed the event up. Its that plain and simple. Was the problems discussed and solved during the postmortem? No, it became a massive happy party where the world is made out of rainbow and unicorns. Yes, I almost blew my top but it was because someone was looking for trouble. I often wished that I would be surrounded with mature thinking intelligent young adults in university but I often found myself babysitting instead. I’m so fed up.

With all this dorama going on around me I must admit that it is time for me to close the curtains on this chapter and retire from EMiNA Cyber and any club or university activities. Sometimes all this shit is just not worth the investment. I rather work with outside group for external event and the like. At least its work done right and professionally minus the childish emotional conducts. Goodnight.

To quote a friend of mine “DaiCon was an event organised by form 5 student with the university’s money with the concert being main purpose featuring some sponsor and vendor booth with a touch of side activities.”. I agree completely now that it is not a ACG event. Enuf said.

But looking back at the progression of the exam I realized that it reminded me of an RPG style scenario typically found in most Role Playing Games that I used to play. Therefore, I have taken the liberty in describing my experience in such a manner as if you are playing a RPG which can be seen/read below.

“…It was time at last. After level grinding for what can be seen as an eternity(4months) and multiple side quest later(in which some side quest were basically abandon or failed completely) Ihad finally reached the front gates of the ultimate FREAKING lair of the FINAL boss of the game. Seeing how this was not a typical Square-Enix RPG you are to fight and end the game all by yourself. So basically helping your other party members to level up and get the best equipment of the game is a waste of time.

So in a typical fashion you  go pass the short dungeon before reaching every boss fight. So last minute leveling are definitely a must(every night). The first boss was scary, at first I thought that I did not bring enough items, leveled enough or even used the best weapon and armour I can find but then again surprisingly the battle was quite okay. Second boss was a bit tricky. Barely defeated that one. 3rd one wasn’t a problem. 4th one was a bitch and it said “THIS IS NOT THE END!!!” when it went down. Typical boss death quote I tell you but I do hope it stays just that.

Anyways, after the 4 previous bosses are what we usually call in RPG’s as sub-bosses who appears before the main boss fight to soften you up before the final battle. The fifth one? The ultimate uber boss that you fight of the entire game. Over 9,000,000,000 HP, high stats and also multiple status and element resistant. It was INSANELY HARD. Really, it was. I died. The only action I was able to do was to select the ‘attack’ command once and I got stepped on for a whopping 99999 damage. WOOT! My damage inflicted? Well…1…maybe. And I suspected it was pitying me for that. I could have sworn i saw it shed a small tear.

Interestingly, I was allowed to sit for a battle with the six boss which was in fact can be considered a mini boss fight. Any boss fights or battles after the final boss are mainly just for show in RPG’s cause you’ll definitely win. End of game.”

Anyways, it seems I have to fight the final boss again from the last save point to unlock the ultimate game achivement of being able to proceed to the next level. Not to mention, apparently all this while I have been fighting the wrong 3rd boss. It seems to be an optional boss that I was not suppose to fight and now I have to refight the REAL 3rd boss in order to get the FULL TRUE ENDNIG. Heh. They both look and named almost the same. It was confusing. I blame the game maker for making such confusing menus.

Sigh. I hate my life…and here I thought I had it all figured out and yes my words are cryptic.