August 12th, 2011
It is interesting. Very interesting indeed. An observation that is of people’s behaviour. Although the separation between right from wrong is distance with a wide grey area this is still in my humblest of opinion is hypocrisy.
What I mean is this. My observation started with a little known incident called the Great Tohoku Earthquake or also known as that big huge ass earthquake/tsunami that devastated Japan’s east coast. After that incident many people around the world and especially in my home country rallied to their aid. Collecting food, monetary aid, blankets and the like. I’m not saying its a bad thing. It’s a very good thing to do to help others and I highly encourage it. But then why the fuss? Read on.
February 6th, 2011
Its now the new year. Chinese New Year to be precised and its not looking very good for me. Lack of festivities aside, I’m down in the dumps again. ‘Emo’ as I usually calls it. I quit my second job just two days before the first day of the Chinese New Year celebrations. The first job wasn’t a problem and the people was nice but it wasn’t what I wanted to do. The second one…well…due to my decision to try it out it has really affected not only me but also my relationship to those around me. Again, I got misunderstood, not just by friends but by family as well.
I was told of nonsense by my boss and yes I relayed what was said to me to those I spoke to. Although many times I have said that I do NOT care what he said and that I’m only trying to take the opportunity to use his resources to train the people I bring in, I keep getting misunderstood as “you felt for his tricks and gimmick”. Regardless, as much hurt and pain I’m reeling from this treatment I’m getting its nothing compared to the words of your love ones condemning you to shame.
One might ask me questions on my bad decisions and give suggestions to stay on and then give degrading statements that I’m useless and couldn’t hold a job but let me ask this:
“Are you happy? With your current (first) job?” Yes?
“Do you like the environment you’re in?” Yes?
“Do you have great colleagues and an understanding and cooperative boss?” Yes?
If its yes the you have not been in my shoes. I’m looking for what you have right now. It might not be 100% the same that is true but I’m looking for the right environment and that’s why I change. The current company I am in is dying to a point where it cannot sustain itself due to mismanagement and very bad planning. I did not see this during most of the first month I was there but only during the second month and I then quit with the rest of the company at the end of my second month there.
Indeed, I am not perfect and I will make mistakes and continue to make mistakes in my life but it doesn’t mean one doesn’t learn from experience and move on. That is the part and parcel of becoming human. Show me one human being that has never made a mistake before and I’ll show you a portrait of Da Vinci painted by Mona Lisa herself.
Went to Seremban this year to visit my girlfriend’s family for the Chinese New Year. Worst decision ever. They hated me. Well hate is a harsh word so I guess “disagree with her choice” is the more appropriate one to use. Not to say I didn’t expect what will happen though. Don’t really blame them too. If I dated myself I’ll disagree too.
Anyways, I’m just gonna take things easy for the rest of the month and take my time finding another job opportunity. It hurts but I guess I should not be bothered so much about this. People will always say stuff about you after they met you only once(or twice). First impression as they say is important but as I always say…in life…”never judge a book by its cover” and “actions are better than words”.
Happy Lunar New Year to you and your family and may prosperity shine upon you this new year.
January 4th, 2011
Its now the start of 2011 and I know I have not been blogging lately. Its sad to see my writing L33T writing skillz degrade from minuscule to nothingless. See! Even nothingless is not even a real word. I should really not write anything while having a headache otherwise I’ll create even more Bushisms than even George.W.Bush himself. But enough of this shenanigans, lets take a look at my 2010 shall we? If you prefer you can always go here instead.
2010 was a really REALLY weird year for me. It was a years of change, joy and also sadness. All mixed up in a giant blender top off with some disappointment.
1. FINAL YEAR PROJECT
Pretty hard to miss this one here. Its my Final year pursuing my degree in electronics engineering in Multimedia University. It was tiring, kinda fun, painfully sad and satisfying when this was all over. It was a solo project. Not a very smart thing to do mind you. It didn’t really work out in the end and although I wanted to do this in a team I was unfortunately to receive the short end of the straw…again. As usual, I could sum up my entire university life in just two words really. Lonely and disappointment. Yes I did meet some really great people and had some wonderfully crazy times but the times I had IN class with people just didn’t really work out.
The yellow block of cheese robot didn’t move in the end after building it up due to very bad board fabrication. Would have done a better job if I had a partner to do it with. Anyways, whats done is done. No use crying over spilled milk.
2. USA SUSI TRIP
The land of liberty and freedom. I had one heck of a shocker when I found out that I was selected as one of the 7 Malaysians to participate in the year’s summer Study of the US Institute program. I had loads of fun there. Meeting the people. Seeing the sights and listening to the sounds of a country I have admire from behind a TV screen all my life. The Americans and their lifestyle may not be perfect or great but no ever country ever is. They might have their problems but their ideals ingrained in every citizen is really something to admire about.
Its hard to describe something as an experience into words. Only that it was EPIC. Although, there was a certain incident that made the rest of the SUSI participants hate me. I blame it on the huge age differences and on how I view things differently. I will return to the US of A that I guarantee but without the extra baggage.
3. END OF STUDIES
About two months after the SUSI program ended, I finally completed my extra semester for an additional subject and also partly due to the US trip. I was actually pretty weird going to class without seeing most of the people I knew throughout the years. Almost all of them had graduated by the time I came back since the convocation was held during my entire flight duration back to Malaysia. Finishing up my degree should feel satisfying but again…I’m not really feeling it that much. Maybe because I have a freaking study loan the cost of a brand sparkling new Toyota Vios with automatic transmission to boot literally up my ass. That was really a punch to the balls especially since they decided to start the payment counter in May and NOT in October when Ive actually finished my course.
4.WORK WORK….CARRY ON NOW…
A couple of weeks after my final FINAL paper I started working with an engineering firm nearby as a project engineer. They were supposed to be dealing in building control systems as part of a green building kinda program. I though ‘Hey, this should be interesting as by joining the project team I will be learning so much and benefiting from it too. HAHAHAHAHA.’ I was wrong…I became a site supervisor instead. After over a month of not delivering what they hired me for I quit and a week later with recommendation from my sister, I’m now at my new job doing sales and marketing in an events company that specializes in trade shows. I do not know whether I feel lucky or not because I really hate conducting sales. But I’m now trying to stay positive….really…really hard. Hehehe. ;;>__> On the plus side, I’m now at least involved in the events field. Although, it is not what I expected it to be. This company may be small, old school and very obsolete but at least I’m being given opportunities to learn and grow.
It has been a tiring but not entirely not great year for me. I just hope and wish that this year in 2011, would be a better life changing year ahead. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY AND GOD BLESS!!!!!!
November 13th, 2010
Seriously, I’ve heard this for a long time of various Yaoi doujins of Naruto characters but I could not believe my eyes when I saw the torrent for a KakashiXNaruto doujin floating on Tokyotosho. Translated. IN FREAKING ENGLISH!!! To be honest, I just don’t care about yaoi manga but seeing is believing I guess.
I just don’t get seeing 2 (apparently gay) guys doing it as fun.
Screw this shit. /runs
November 7th, 2010
Life is like a book with many different chapters and one of those chapters just ended for me. After 5 years of being in a university to complete my degree, I’m done. Done with all the studying and lectures and assignments and most importantly exams. But with all that said and done it is never over to stop learning. Although it might seem fun and less stressful at times, the working life has its ups and downs. Its just shifting one worry for another.
To me, my life as a university students was a dump. I didn’t socialized with my classmates much, was a mess emotionally, met assholes who I thought could be considered as friends who ultimately backstab me and honestly, it was quite a bitch really. Although as a consolation, I did meet a few good people and also my certain someone at the end of the day.
Studying in Multimedia University or any local university for short is just the same as one is studying back in secondary school. Pathetically dull, boring and having the ability to kill off any sort of creative thinking that one might have. I’m not saying that all my lecturers suck. Most of them were pretty good and helpful mind you but the method that most of they themselves employed is just an extension on how ineffective the Malaysian education environment is. I started out studying engineering to do something that is beneficial to society, but now I’m seriously regretting it as the job scopes here in the country is so limited its sad. Sad to the point that no matter where I look its all the same.
After being in a classroom and seeing how the classes were handled while on the US summer program, I can clearly see how sad the state of our education system is. I have never felt more alive being in the classroom in the US than I’ve ever been the whole of my student life. I would love to try applying for their masters program but seeing how I can’t afford that I’m just hoping that I might get one of their assistantship programs in the future. Although, the chances for that is as slim as bulimic warthog.
So as I sit here at my work site typing this out of sheer boredom, I’m also trying to look for another more meaningful and productive occupation. By the way, I got trolled into joining this sad state of a company and I can’t believe I got suckered into this. I hope the next job would be better.