Rejected, dejected and ignored

I dunno. It felt strange during the…stuff . I tried to be myself but it was hard. Very hard. I used to have no problems mixing and mingling with people but yesterday it felt really strange and weird. I felt like I was being ignored. Reasons? No idea.

Imagine yourself walking into a group of people who are cheerfully talking and when you stand next to them one of them just gives you the evil eye and look away while everyone suddenly becomes silent. There were some misunderstandings between me and another friend due to the actions of a brainless ingrate who shook the friendship that we had but luckily it was later cleared up. I hate it when there’s tension between friends. Its just plain ridiculous when something so insignificant can destroy something so precious as friendship. But still, I can’t believe that shit can happen even when you’re not even taking a dump.

It’s like I’m just doing my own things happily doing what I have to do like every other person while someone takes a gun and shoot you. Shit like that. The result is I personally feel like I’m an evil villain that everyone is trying to avoid and vilify. The culprit behaves like everything is alright. But can you say that its alrite to detonate a nuclear warhead in the middle of a metropolis points a finger and say that the guy sleeping downstairs pushed the button and then acts like nothing is wrong while the whole time his actions are being broadcast live on TV? Shameful. Totally shameful. If I have done something stupid and wrong and you tell me off about it I will accept and apologize cause its the right thing to do and I’m not perfect. It takes a man to admit he is wrong but it takes a coward no effort to do anything.

I may forgive but I’ll never forget. I just need my life to get on track again after having my life being derailed by something that is NOT cause by me this time. I have priorites, responsibilities and bigger fish to fry.

well…its either that or maybe they’re just tired and I’m delving into this too much because of a lack of sleep myself(it tends to happens…alot).